The Prettiest Woman in the World

Who is the prettiest woman in the world?
Celebrities that I don't and can't remember their names?
People that wear makeup every day and night and might die without their makeups on?

Nope.
Non of them.

The prettiest woman in the world is a pregnant lady,
with her hubby taking care of her as if she's a baby.

Saw an expected mother in yesterday's dinner.
Her hubby actually follows her every time she wants to go to the washroom.
Will hold her hand and walk slowly together with her,
whisper to her and will hold her waist sometimes.
When she went in to the washroom,
he'll wait patiently outside the washroom,
unlike other guys that will be looking at their hand phone,
tapping their feet impatiently,
or even simply walk away.

He never.
He waited until his wife come out,
hand her a tissue for her to wipe her hand,
pat pat her head and tidy up her hair for her,
hold her hand tightly and hold her waist with another hand,
and walk back to their table,
whispering smiling laughing together.

Isn't that sweet?
Isn't she the prettiest woman in the world?

Where's my Appetite?

Never eat any solid food since erm,
Monday night?

Bought a tiramisu from Secret Receipe at e-gate and some bread from 7-11 for my breakfast on Tuesday.

End up I never eat the tiramisu on Monday night,
instead I ate it on the Tuesday morning,
and the bread that I bought is still with me now,
fresh and new and unopened. =.="

I went to see doctor today due to gastric.
The doctor scolded me for not eating anything.
And she said that my body can't support if I never eat anything at all,
especially with my current weight.
Ahem. =.="
I told her that I don't have appetite to eat,
and she said that she can't recommend me any medicine that can improve my appetite,
else I'll become Lydia Sum when I recover.

WTH. =.="

What make her think of Lydia Sum eh?

Anyway,
walked to Tesco to grab some cereal just now.
I passed by those shelf full with chocolates,
and kept telling myself that I should get at least one of those chocolates.
Guess what.
I stood in front of the shelf for like,
10 minutes.
And non of the chocolates actually successful in 'seducing' me.
Weird eh? =.="

Purposely pass by the shelf with junk foods as well.
Still,
don't feel like buying any of those.

Walked to the frozen food section,
saw my favorite HASH BROWN !!
I'll grab like 2 packets of those normally lor.
End up,
I need to force myself to take one bottle of the yogurt drink opposite the hash brown fridge,
cause I don't wanna look weird checking out with only a pack of cereal and a pack of Kotex pad.
=.="

Where's my appetite lar !!
How come I'm not attracted to any food that I love anymore?
=(

My Final Decision

Lots of thing had happened.

I was brought to the highest level of happiness, and someone actually pushed me down, telling me that everything doesn't belongs to me.

I'm shock.
I'm angry.
I'm sad.
I'm confuse.
I'm scare.
I'm nervous.
I'm jealous.
I'm selfish.
I'm losing my mind.

I lost my direction.
I don't know what to do next.
I don't know what will happen next.

I feel guilty.
I feel bad.
I feel like crying.
I feel like scolding someone.
I feel like hitting someone / something to release my anger and disappointment.
I feel like getting crazy.
I feel like killing myself.

I regret cause I wasn't born earlier.
I regret cause I'm not able to leave, and indirectly hurt innocent people.

Everything went back to the time when I'm still 17 years old,
where I'm not able to make a proper decision,
where I'm insisted my own choice thou everyone is objecting it,
where I still believe in commitments and promises.

I decided to stay.
Agree or disagree is all up to you.
I'm old enough to handle the responsibilities and results from my decision.
I don't need anyone to help me to decide my life.
Good or bad I won't be showing off or complaining.
Just let me be what I want to be.
I know I'll be regretted if I never try to fight for the thing I want.
I know this will be tough for me but I'm sure I'll be much tougher to face all the challenges.

Support me if you agree with me.
Ignore me if you're disagree or trying to be sarcastic.
Just put yourself in my shoes and stop calling me with all those bad names.

I will be staying for half year,
and this is my final decision.